'Am I dying?': Wisconsin nurse describes acting as family to COVID-19 patients who worry and suffer alone (2024)

'Am I dying?': Wisconsin nurse describes acting as family to COVID-19 patients who worry and suffer alone (1)

APPLETON, Wis. — The coronavirusentered Katie Harris's life innocently: as a trivia question.

What was the name of the virus that had just begun to hit the United States? She and her longtime best friend, who had both recently relocated to Arizona to work as travel nurses, didn't know the answer.

Now, she knows all too well.

Harris returned to Wisconsin's Fox Valley in May and picked back up at ThedaCare, where she started her nursing career three years prior. When she left Arizona, she knew COVID-19was here to stay — butduring thesummer, ThedaCare, like hospitals around the state, saw a lull inpatients. At the end of August, fewer than 300 people across Wisconsin were hospitalized with the virus.

But by early fall, a surge in cases was stressing hospitals in the the state. Today, nearly 2,000 COVID-19 patients are in hospitals.

ThedaCare hospitals have fluctuated between 90 and 100% capacity in recent weeks. One official said in four decades on the job, he'd never seen patient volumes as high.

Medical experts begged people to stay at home for the Thanksgiving holiday, but Harris said she and her coworkers on one of the COVID-19 units in Appleton, Wis. already know what's going to happen.

"We've been through the ringer for months, and the community has seen everything. We've laid it all out there," she said. "And people still probably aren't going to listen."

More:Fauci worries Thanksgiving may be the start of a dark holiday season if COVID-19 cases continue to soar

COVID-19 infections are soaring.A look at restrictions in your state.

Nurses on other units have told her they don't know how she does it, but she rarely has time to stop and assess the gravity of the situation she's in. She shows up because the patients need her.

Increasingly, they need her foreverything— they're so fatigued they need assistance getting to the bathroom, sitting up, even moving around in bed—as the number of seriously ill people in the hospital grows. She's seen patients' conditions worsenrapidly, from feeling fine in the morning to needing to be rushed to the ICU and placed on a ventilator in the afternoon.

But dealing with multiple patients with respiratory issues, physically taxing as it might be, isn't new to nurses, and isn't the hardest part for Harris.

What's hard is that she's now a stand-in family member for each of them, too, as hospitals' visitor restrictions to prevent further spread of the virus often leave patientsto fight the disease alone.

"Am I dying?" they'll ask her.

Most days, there's no sense in sugarcoating the answer. Harris can't always tell them what they want to hear, but she can tell them what they need to do to improve their chances — whether it's proning, a technique where patients lie on their stomachs to better expand the lungs, or working on other breathing exercises.

That's what she'll remember when the pandemic subsides: the feeling of being a patient's lifeline, their one-man band, and what a difference her emotional support could make in their recovery. The work, more than ever, is deeply personal.

Harris also plays a crucial role in updating family members about their sick loved ones. It's hard to deliver the news over the phone that a patient hasn't had a particularly good day. Sometimes, she said, the person on the other end of the line just cries.

There are days when the effort of driving home after a 12-hour shift is about all she can muster, and there are days when she calls co-workers to vent. Having a team she can count on, she said, makes the hard days easier.

"We know we need that support from each other," Harris said. "They understand what you're going through. They don't even have to say a word."

Where support is missing, she feels, isfrom the community. Seeing people resist guidance to stay home and wear a mask is hard to swallow, she said, when she sees what could happen to them if they get infected.

She feels like health care workers aren't being heard. Either people who are acting carelessly don't understand what she and her coworkers go through, she said, or they just don't care.

"What else can we do?" Harris said. "What else do people in the community need us to do to prove to them that this is serious?"

Follow Madeline Heim on Twitter at @madeline_heim.

'Am I dying?': Wisconsin nurse describes acting as family to COVID-19 patients who worry and suffer alone (2024)
Top Articles
Latest Posts
Article information

Author: Jonah Leffler

Last Updated:

Views: 6060

Rating: 4.4 / 5 (65 voted)

Reviews: 88% of readers found this page helpful

Author information

Name: Jonah Leffler

Birthday: 1997-10-27

Address: 8987 Kieth Ports, Luettgenland, CT 54657-9808

Phone: +2611128251586

Job: Mining Supervisor

Hobby: Worldbuilding, Electronics, Amateur radio, Skiing, Cycling, Jogging, Taxidermy

Introduction: My name is Jonah Leffler, I am a determined, faithful, outstanding, inexpensive, cheerful, determined, smiling person who loves writing and wants to share my knowledge and understanding with you.